For those of you who are not in the loop, tomorrow is my birthday so I thought that I might blog about what this means for me especially after cancer. Tomorrow, I will turn 50 years old. It is my first birthday since being diagnosed with Hodgkins lymphoma and going through chemo and radiation. I am just happy to be here and have the sun shining in this often cold place. I don't care how old I am turning. Some people would be thinking wow! that is jubilee celebrations - it gotta be big or how will I put it together. For me, all that is far from my thoughts. I know that at 50 "Ahhhh... is the sound I will make every time I sit down in a chair from now on and Uhhhhh... is the sound I will make every time I get up from a chair from now on. Then, I am thinking, as you get older three things happen. The first is your memory goes and oops! I can't remember the other two... Good Lord, I am thinking this is crazy..
And... yeah I remember before my diagnosis, I always said I would want my 50th to be big and fabulous. But, now my thoughts are very far and a bit different. I am thinking,Wow! I made it! I am looking back and doing a lot of reflection on what happened in my life just this past year and how much I have changed.....Don't get me wrong, I do feel privileged reaching this milestone but, I cannot shake off the feeling of my friends I journeyed with during chemo and did not make it. You are forever in my heart. May God rest your body and soul in peace. As the days got closer I kept thinking about the cancer friends I met during treatment and during this journey particularly those that are still struggling more than me. I could not help but keep thinking about those cancer friends I have lost over this short year. I survived and I feel privileged! Most of my friends and my family really wanted a big celebration but I found myself wanting really solitude.
Anyway, here I am after my diagnosis. I have a whole life ahead of me though much different than I had planned prior to my diagnosis. I keep wondering who would I be and what would I be doing had cancer never found its way into my life. This sure was a dramatic curve ball thrown my way which changed everything and will continue to change who I am for the rest of my life. But, the key thing is that I have my life and therefore, I will celebrate that with utmost joy and respect. Life is one of those rare gifts that I hold very close to my heart. I welcome this 50th birthday anniverary and look forward to an amazing year filled with new adventures and dreams to particularly run a marathon for Cancer cure next year.
With that said, I must admit that before cancer, I took everything for granted. Now, I appreciate every new day and put as much as I can into a day. In fact, when I hear people complain about little things, I have to take a pause and think before snapping at them because someone who has not been through cancer cannot appreciate life and all that it brings. I am grateful for every person I encountered throughout my journey. You are the charming gardeners who make my soul blossom!
Well, who knows whats gonna happen... To keep your spot in the loop, just stay tuned for the big Five-Oh! news..
xoxo
You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have.
Showing posts with label Milestone. Show all posts
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Friday, June 29, 2012
Saturday, January 14, 2012
Celebrating Milestones - Surprise Lunch @ Joy Bistro
Knowing someone is willing to come and sit with you to celebrate your milestones is very touching. Today is that very special day. A big thank you to everyone who came out to celebrate this major milestone in my life. What a pleasant and much appreciated surprise! Yeah! I am a chemo/radiation graduate! Thank you again to all those who were not able to make it but have been constant friends during this journey. A big shout out to my girl Krissy in Victoria busy with her Phd. Shelley my girl, I know you just got back from South Africa and are getting back to the feel of things. A big shout out to Venece you are my girl and kept me strong all the way. Another big shout out to my brother Kirby vacationing in Cuba and could not make it. Kirby you chauffered me to appointments despite your hectic schedule and you truly kept me strong with your words of encouragement. Steve, I know you would have been there but I understand. Thank you Steve for keeping me strong and giving me that dose of much needed laughter. I have to give a shout out to Esther my girl, I love you and appreciate you. Sam my best friend in Winlow, BC, you came all the way the minute you knew I was sick and have been there every step of the way appointments and all. I love you so much. I am going to share with y'all the lovely photos of this big event filled with so much joy, love and hope...
Check out the ambience! The event was at this fabulous place called Joy Bistro on Queen Street, in Leslieville two streets from my house. Just amazing place and the food was off the chain! Hello to my fun crew who kept me up when I was down. You make me smile every single day and I appreciate y'all! If you all look up you will see me appreciating!
That is Tinashe my daughter and Karen the two secretive people who made the event possible and kept everything under wraps making sure I stayed in the dark. Hats off to you! What can I say, Tinashe you are the bomb! Karen the other bomb! Karen those massages and home visits I would not trade them for anything! By the way the massage you gave me on Saturday was so fabulous. It took me out for the next three days - have been sleeping like a baby. What about all the other massages? I have no words. Karen, you climbed this mountain with me and words alone cannot suffice. Tinashe my rock what more can I say. I love you girl...my caregiver!
Tapfuma my son the handsome photographer who took most of these photos. He was also behind the plot of keeping this whole event secret tight. Remember the nights at the emergency? And those chemo days when you had to literally babysit me? All those hugs and kisses! You are a fine young man. I love you and adore you.
Oh! Heather, Tinashe and Kinnon - you are so awesome! You were all there every step of the way. I could not have done this without y'all. I love you much! You never left me even when the tough got going! I depended on y'all! Heather, you were at my house every other day without getting weary. You had a hectic schedule but you made me your priority. I love you so much! Kinnon, you were there all the time, even when you went to Antigonish, you still held me down with so much love- texting and messaging me. When you got back you were right there at my house lifting me up even though you were exhausted from all the driving. I love you so much!
Leo my other son, I adore you. Man you gave me such a funny bone during this whole journey. You are a true friend who knows that special song in my heart. You were there Leo singing back those lyrics when I had forgotten the words. I remember laughing during those very difficult times until my chest hurt. Thank you for being there for me.
Thats Steph, Kinnon and Heather my awesome and fabulous friends who made this journey so much easier. Steph, you were at my house every other day. You did not care that you were travelling all the way from Oakville. That is what I call true friendship! Love you Steph! I dont know how to thank you all. You were my inner core. The people I depended on every single day. I feel like I climbed this mountain with y'all just holding my hand.
Diana, I love you my dear. You picked me up at every turn of the moment. I appreciate you so much! Someone at the lunch said to me is your friend a socialite? And I said well that is my Professor many years ago, one amazing academic and mentor extraordinaire! We have come from very far my friend. I truly adore you and cherish our friendship. But, now you have acquired the new nickname of socialite.
Willi, I love you so much! You, Rauni and Stacey where the angels sent from above! You were there every step of the way and provided every single help more than I even anticipated. Thank you for being in my life and being my shelter from the storm. May God continue blessing your work at Philip Aziz Center and the many lives you touch every single day.
My favourite niece Rutendo and her lovely mom Gladys! Always there for me! I love you both! Rutendo, you are such a special little girl. In fact, you are the most well behaved and adorable little girl that I know in the whole of Canada. Good job Gladys I am so proud of you! I give you Mother of our times award! I still need to see any mother who can show me they are doing a better job than you. By the way, this award is timeless. Thank you for making those hard days easy. I appreciate you being there every other day pampering me and just dusting me off when it was tough. I love you girl and I appreciate you!
Jennifer, Heather and Karen having a pow wow. Jennifer thank you for being the first shoulder that I cried on when I got the news. You are my family because you offered me that embrace and love that I so much needed. All the other people saw me after you had done all the ground work of counselling and allaying my fears for me. You mean so much to me and I love you deeply.
Lena, my dear friend.. You have a heart of gold and I cherish my friendship with you.. Even when you were busy with assignments and your babies you tracked all the way to my house all the time. You are a true friend and I love you much...
Kinnon giving us his very broad and well build shoulders, Maurice I dont know what you are preaching, Steph lost in deep thought or attention. Maurice I adore you my friend thank you for being a true friend. You were my Professor many years ago and now my friend and mentor extraordinaire. I just feel so blessed to have you in my life.
Julie my very long time dear friend from Yonge Street Mission. I love you so much and you are like a sister to me. You have been a true friend and have cheered me on since day one. Thank you so much!
Heather and Tapfuma. I so love that picture! It reminds me so much how everyone on this blog and all the other people locally and internationally made me feel so loved and so blessed. If I were to summarize this journey, look at this picture - its saying the thousand words I wish to convey.
Marjorie and Tazvi. Marj you are a true friend and I love you. Tazvi my adopted son, what would I do without you my chauffer and my everything. You are a fine young man and I am so proud to be called your mother. You hold a very special place in my heart.
That is Sauda, Nicholas, Me, Ziyada. Those are my three lovely adopted kids from Uganda. I love them so much. I could not have done this without them. Rashida their mom is missing and their brother Ibrahim. There are my beautiful other family.
Vuso, thank you my friend for being a true friend in times of need. I appreciate you.
Jennifer my thesis supervisor and me after she handed me my Master's of Social Work thesis which I missed receiving last year because of this incredible cancer journey. Thank you Jen for the most touching heart warming and beautiful speech. You made me feel so special. This thesis is the beginning of a new chapter for me into something bigger as you always said.
Check out the ambience! The event was at this fabulous place called Joy Bistro on Queen Street, in Leslieville two streets from my house. Just amazing place and the food was off the chain! Hello to my fun crew who kept me up when I was down. You make me smile every single day and I appreciate y'all! If you all look up you will see me appreciating!
That is Tinashe my daughter and Karen the two secretive people who made the event possible and kept everything under wraps making sure I stayed in the dark. Hats off to you! What can I say, Tinashe you are the bomb! Karen the other bomb! Karen those massages and home visits I would not trade them for anything! By the way the massage you gave me on Saturday was so fabulous. It took me out for the next three days - have been sleeping like a baby. What about all the other massages? I have no words. Karen, you climbed this mountain with me and words alone cannot suffice. Tinashe my rock what more can I say. I love you girl...my caregiver!
Tapfuma my son the handsome photographer who took most of these photos. He was also behind the plot of keeping this whole event secret tight. Remember the nights at the emergency? And those chemo days when you had to literally babysit me? All those hugs and kisses! You are a fine young man. I love you and adore you.
Oh! Heather, Tinashe and Kinnon - you are so awesome! You were all there every step of the way. I could not have done this without y'all. I love you much! You never left me even when the tough got going! I depended on y'all! Heather, you were at my house every other day without getting weary. You had a hectic schedule but you made me your priority. I love you so much! Kinnon, you were there all the time, even when you went to Antigonish, you still held me down with so much love- texting and messaging me. When you got back you were right there at my house lifting me up even though you were exhausted from all the driving. I love you so much!
Leo my other son, I adore you. Man you gave me such a funny bone during this whole journey. You are a true friend who knows that special song in my heart. You were there Leo singing back those lyrics when I had forgotten the words. I remember laughing during those very difficult times until my chest hurt. Thank you for being there for me.
Thats Steph, Kinnon and Heather my awesome and fabulous friends who made this journey so much easier. Steph, you were at my house every other day. You did not care that you were travelling all the way from Oakville. That is what I call true friendship! Love you Steph! I dont know how to thank you all. You were my inner core. The people I depended on every single day. I feel like I climbed this mountain with y'all just holding my hand.
Diana, I love you my dear. You picked me up at every turn of the moment. I appreciate you so much! Someone at the lunch said to me is your friend a socialite? And I said well that is my Professor many years ago, one amazing academic and mentor extraordinaire! We have come from very far my friend. I truly adore you and cherish our friendship. But, now you have acquired the new nickname of socialite.
Willi, I love you so much! You, Rauni and Stacey where the angels sent from above! You were there every step of the way and provided every single help more than I even anticipated. Thank you for being in my life and being my shelter from the storm. May God continue blessing your work at Philip Aziz Center and the many lives you touch every single day.
My favourite niece Rutendo and her lovely mom Gladys! Always there for me! I love you both! Rutendo, you are such a special little girl. In fact, you are the most well behaved and adorable little girl that I know in the whole of Canada. Good job Gladys I am so proud of you! I give you Mother of our times award! I still need to see any mother who can show me they are doing a better job than you. By the way, this award is timeless. Thank you for making those hard days easy. I appreciate you being there every other day pampering me and just dusting me off when it was tough. I love you girl and I appreciate you!
Jennifer, Heather and Karen having a pow wow. Jennifer thank you for being the first shoulder that I cried on when I got the news. You are my family because you offered me that embrace and love that I so much needed. All the other people saw me after you had done all the ground work of counselling and allaying my fears for me. You mean so much to me and I love you deeply.
Lena, my dear friend.. You have a heart of gold and I cherish my friendship with you.. Even when you were busy with assignments and your babies you tracked all the way to my house all the time. You are a true friend and I love you much...
Kinnon giving us his very broad and well build shoulders, Maurice I dont know what you are preaching, Steph lost in deep thought or attention. Maurice I adore you my friend thank you for being a true friend. You were my Professor many years ago and now my friend and mentor extraordinaire. I just feel so blessed to have you in my life.
Julie my very long time dear friend from Yonge Street Mission. I love you so much and you are like a sister to me. You have been a true friend and have cheered me on since day one. Thank you so much!
Heather and Tapfuma. I so love that picture! It reminds me so much how everyone on this blog and all the other people locally and internationally made me feel so loved and so blessed. If I were to summarize this journey, look at this picture - its saying the thousand words I wish to convey.
Marjorie and Tazvi. Marj you are a true friend and I love you. Tazvi my adopted son, what would I do without you my chauffer and my everything. You are a fine young man and I am so proud to be called your mother. You hold a very special place in my heart.
That is Sauda, Nicholas, Me, Ziyada. Those are my three lovely adopted kids from Uganda. I love them so much. I could not have done this without them. Rashida their mom is missing and their brother Ibrahim. There are my beautiful other family.
Vuso, thank you my friend for being a true friend in times of need. I appreciate you.
Jennifer my thesis supervisor and me after she handed me my Master's of Social Work thesis which I missed receiving last year because of this incredible cancer journey. Thank you Jen for the most touching heart warming and beautiful speech. You made me feel so special. This thesis is the beginning of a new chapter for me into something bigger as you always said.
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