You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have.

Saturday, July 23, 2011

The Needle Biopsy and the Test Results

My anticipated visit for the needle biopsy was on July 21st.  To tell the truth, I cant remember how I felt because I just wanted to know what was going on. I was glad that my partner took time off and he was there together with Tinashe. Its not the Chief who did it - I see this resident and a nurse prepping and I am thinking, well, it should be fine.  No, it was not. It was so painful and I still remember the whole process. It kept replaying in my head and I was glad when it was over.  Thank God! my poor Tinashe was just there in the room as I squeezed her tender slender fingers.  Poor girl, I almost crushed them if you ask me - just from the pain. It was excruciating. Now the waiting begins - two weeks I am told the results would be in. I hate waiting... I am impatient and I cannot take this anymore.  On |August 4th, I go to get my biopsy results. Tinashe and myself we go in the room and the doctor comes in. Yes, the resident doctor or student comes in and she says there is nothing wrong with you...you just have a swollen lymph and its nothing to worry about. Phew! I was happy and thought I am fine. Then the Ortolaryngologist-in-Chief says the results were incomplete the specific test for lymphoma was not done. The resident apparently forgot to label the cultures. Damn, why is this happening to me really?  I am tongue tied and follow the doctor to the reception to schedule another appointment now to do an incisional biopsy. I respect doctors and I know they are human and can make mistakes like everyone else but at that moment, I am so pissed.  I get an appointment for August 11th the following week at least.  I am thinking, by the time this is all done, I am going to feel like a medical intern...