The ENT Visits

I am beginning to feel desolate, I just want to know what is going on and its taking so long. I visited the ENT specialist on June 15th. He tells me the swelling is just too big and he decided to give me a very strong antibiotic to alleviate the swelling as well as in case it was a simple infection. He saw me again on June 28th to see whether the swelling had gone down but, the swelling was still the same. I got some more antibiotics and went back again on 5th July and he tells me he could not do the biopsy because the tumour was lodged into my neck and I needed to see another specialist who deals with that. Oh God! my life is going into a spin! But, there is always a silver lining. My best friend and the God mother of my children, Sam is visiting me from Slocan, British Columbia and we are having so much fun. Oh! Sam, I love you to pieces. You are so special to me and you are my rock! A good distraction from all the depressing happenings. Sam accompanies me to the appointment and holds my hand and renders much needed emotional support. Am glad that Tinashe is getting respite because this whole saga is affecting everyone. My next visit is scheduled for July 21st with the Ortolaryngist in Chief. I am hoping this should be great since he is the big boss! My mind is not justfocused on my health. I am thinking WHY???? I am about to finish my thesis...WHY?????  While I wait for this appointment I am thinking let me pound away and finalize my thesis before the deadline.  I am thinking at least whatever outcome it is at least I will have some kind of accomplishment under my belt. I wait and I type away throughout the night when I lose sleep about whats going on with my health.....